i'm home now... and i'm exhausted! please read on...

( music can conrol every emotion you have )

( sooo... did you know? )

tidings...

i wish i had a nice digital camera...

another night of great sleep!

my computer is so messed... so if you have an extra, please let me have it!

wow...

I havent looked upon a live journal in months! I forget how much i like it!

Thanksgiving was wonderful... I really really have no money, and I had an amazing sleep last night!

take care everyone...

"How do you pick up the threads of an old life...  How do you go on, when in your heart you begin to understand...  there is no going back..   There are some things that time cannot mend... some wounds that go too deep... that have taken hold."

The smell of New Jersey is honestly heart warming... I got home a few hours ago. The first thing we did when we got out of the van, we hit up the diner! 24 hour food... i missed that on the road, some nights... we would walk endlessly in the cold at 10 pm trying to find a place to eat... everything would close at like 9...
bleh... heh theres so much to write, but i cant handle to sit here for an hour and post all the crazy occurances that went down...
Im super happy to be home, but at the same time... Im worried, and scared...
In the past two weeks, Ive been to so many different places, its amazing... Its really crazy how we all grow up in our small towns, and most of us never leave... we dont know what else there is to offer...
This entry is weird... heh, I havnt written in a while... and I sound stupid. Im still tired and such... 
Yea i cant type... heh, but leave a message or something, maybe ill post more at a better time...

hey... its almost 6:30 in the morning on saturday, and I leave for tour in a few minutes! Im really excited, I have no idea what to expect... 
I was give the oppurtunity to go on tour with no hollywood ending, playing guitar... were going out with the bank robbers... I think we have a show every stinking night, starting today through the 29th, for the exception of I think 2 dates...
Please leave some love while im away, Ill miss alot of you dearly... Thanks for being so wonderful... my constant love goes out!
love always... matt

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instincts are misleading

Wow... well its been forever since Ive updated updated! But, I just dont feel like writing, eh... but life is soo good right now! I intend to stay this way for a very long time. Things get confusing... I get my hopes up and am mislead (try improper grammar)... but all is well. Worst case scenario, I have myself... and Im true to who I am, and I have music, I have God...

Its almost 2 am... friday morning, I just got home from charitys house... the best hand masouse in the world... well the east coast! We made hash browns, and eggs, and bacon... took a stroll around the town... it was a good night! The whole crew was there, well not the whole crew, ahh... just good times! Im really happy right now...

My friends are so amazing... I feel so blessed!

Im off to bed, tomorrow... I have to wake up early, and rid of my slothfulness... think about me?

...and can someone please send me bahks new username... thanks, it would very much appreciated! I love you all...

fiscal rookie... just a rookie...

McGRIDDLES SUKKAS, McGRIDDLES!

This past weekend, I ventured out to PA for three days with my church. In doing so, I am so happy... I have amazing friends, and Im so blessed...

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Im sitting with a bowl of old pathmark brand conversation hearts from valentines day! They are soo hard, and I swear... all the dental work I did last year is going down the drain... I feel the cavities!

Well today... It was a pretty pleasnt morning, I worked till 3 and came straight home. I later went to guitar center and finally bought the tuning keys for my gibson! So... now my gibson is playable!!! Its so nice, I have two totally different sounds now... the tele and the les paul! Also...my mom gave me money to buy one of those guitar racks that holds 5 guitars! Its so sweet... hah, its soo much more cleaner... and It just looks super cool in my basement! Heh yea, my basement is kinda the headquarters of instruments now... my brother moved his set down here not too long ago... so everything is pretty much down here! Its kinda nice... just more obnoxious if hes playing!

Well, today... was a good day, Im happy about that! Alot of people made me smile... and Im so grateful for that!! Thank you so much... I love you... and thanks for the email tara, and the comments...

goodnight... thank you for reading! Love matt

I watched fellowship of the ring today...

I havent had an off day in a while... I was alone, and I needed it... I woke up late and stayed in my pjs the whole day... I drank too much tea, and watched the fellowship... I then cried at this computer... I read past emails from a better time, friends old journal entries... I couldnt help but cry... I miss it too much, I need you back...

life is so confusing... Im trying so hard to live each day as it was my last... and it seems impossible. Ive been feeling really clustered recently... starting this week... Im going to try and set aside alone time, go walk in the park... or sit by myself and watch a movie... or write 20 new songs... or just cry. In the past few weeks, I havent been able to do that...

( weekend at a glance )